A viewer asks: “Please ask Creator why my intuitive exploration led me to all the pain I’ve tried so hard to heal or leave behind regarding a devastating relationship. I woke up so sad and heartbroken all over again. I can’t live an entire life with this regret; it’s pure torture that eats away at me. It feels like a thousand pounds of pain in my heart and stomach. I already did that for over 30 years. I thought I healed all that, didn’t I? The parallel DSTR adventures? This pain is not normal – it’s way too intense. It’s debilitating. Heartbreaking. It makes me feel old and heavy. Please, please, will you ask Creator what the connection is here? Can you please take a look? Who did I hurt? Who hurt me? With Creator, I can focus on a healing event if I know what to look at. I’d very much like to be a conscious part of the healing if possible because I’m learning; pushing boundaries, and learning. Please help me keep learning. What’d I do? Was I a tyrant? Is that what I’m paying for now?”

There is nothing you need to atone for here you have not already agonized over, more than is good for you. You indeed, have healed much of the past difficulties you speak of, but they are still on record. And to the extent you cannot help yourself from going and inspecting it, it can reawaken the prior drama and re-create the emotional consequences you experienced. The akashic records keep everything on file. This is the danger in self-exploration of unpleasantness. This is why your channel is cautioned to not even comment to people he works with, about their prior lives and the doings in the current life causing specific difficulties for them in the moment, emotionally. Any details given to help define the causes put a name and a face to the problem in a way that it will be impossible to forget. That does not serve the person, in the end, because the point of healing is to enable someone to move on. If you have created for you, an icon representing a tragic loss, a tragic misfortune, a tragic failing, a tragic wounding at the hands of someone you trusted, and so on, that can receive tremendous healing to enable moving on without it having a hold on you and limiting your life. But a return to the shrine, to ponder what once was, and to connect with it energetically, invites re-experiencing and reawakening the pain of the past. That is what you were doing with your strong intention to dive in and connect to what you were seeing. And on recognizing where this was leading to, your deep subconscious touched the old nerves and reawakened the pain of the past. So you felt all of it emotionally, without having the benefit of knowing why, in particular, all of the feelings were so intense. There is more to the story than you were able to see, but that is a part that needs to be left in the past and the connection present healed in a way to keep you at arm's length. If you undo it by going back to the shrine and restarting the connection to what once was, this will reopen old wounds for sure, and this you do not need. To understand is all well and good, but if this cannot be done except through embracing it and merging with the emotional consequences, it will end up being a harmful side excursion, and not a true healing journey. It is best to back away and work with the divine for revealing, and assistance, to keep you looking forward personally, even as you explore the past for the big picture issues. This is a learning opportunity to see there is risk to you in stepping on a land mine if you do not have a conscious awareness of the pitfalls and ask for divine help in guiding your explorations to avoid revisiting the unnecessary.