There is no reason to fear the worst here. You were, indeed, more of a beginner at that point and so we took this into account in watching over your work to shield you with extra vigor, knowing that you would work things out and grow into the role, so the extra divine oversight and support was not unearned, it was simply not yet earned—that is a big difference. Because we could see your blossoming in the future, we were able to bridge the gap on your behalf with divine grace, so you need not fear the worst here that something has happened as a consequence of your fledgling efforts to take on the darkest of the dark, so to speak. You are doing well in holding your energy and committing yourself to the highest ideals in the sessions you conduct—that is all you need to do to be safe and to proceed with confidence.
The discussion you heard was meant to prevent this very situation where someone who is a newcomer takes for granted they are impervious to harm but yet might not be fully solid because of inner misgivings, perhaps only on the level of the deep subconscious. It is difficult to truly know oneself under such circumstances, that is why it is prudent to build up to the larger challenges slowly so you do not overreach and this will prevent any awkward situations from happening. You have learned what you need to know to stand strong and do well regardless of what you attempt, so you can chalk this up to experience and proceed without fear and you will do just fine.
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