A client asks: “Can you talk to God on my behalf? Is there a word from God to me personally? I really need answers that only he can answer. What God wants of me is the most important thing in the world for me and what he thinks of me. The way I view God has been damaged along with my faith since being thrown out of church for being gay, which I still question. I need to know how God feels about that, and about me. Am I gay or not? Will I go to hell if I am?”

This is a most unfortunate circumstance, but we can give you much reassurance that this is all needless worry and suffering. You have been manipulated to become gay in your makeup and preferences. This was not your choosing; it was done as a manipulation to alter things. This is a dilemma that happens to many, many people and is not ever their fault or their choosing. So it is no different than any other life circumstance that people experience as a result of their makeup whether it is like others or is thought to be a liability in some respect or even a defect. That is subjective and often misguided to characterize things that seem unusual or outside the norm but may, in fact, be a complete misinterpretation. With respect to gender issues, we can tell you that the divine perspective is: "What matters is that people are able to give and receive love in whatever form that takes, from whatever inner mechanisms to express it, with whatever gender preferences arise that allow love’s expression." It is all permissible and highly desired on the part of the divine realm to see it come about and to see that it is exercised freely. To not do so is a perversion. The whole point of existence is moving love from one place to another and experiencing it through the self to learn how to be giving and also to receive love. The two go together and are of equal importance and value. How one does it and with whom, we see as a personal choice that falls within the purview of free will and free agency always and is not even divine business. We do not judge it. Each person chooses their path based on their makeup in whatever way it is expressed within them. The failings here are with the church and its draconian views of any departure from the traditional age-old gender norms that were established long ago and were very narrow and very punitive in viewing the entire issue of sexuality as a mixed blessing that can only be expressed and enjoyed under very narrow circumstances of practical value for propagating the species, for example. These, in fact, are perversions of the divine purpose for sexual expression and identity through a gender preference and set of characteristics to create likes and dislikes as a way to generate and feel passionate love and to share those feelings with another to culminate in a relationship sexual gratification as a wonderful expression of love feelings that are deeply satisfying because that is the way you were designed by Creator. You were made to be a sexual being. It is a deep soul characteristic. There is an innate soul gender preference for each person. When that differs from their physical gender, this is where problems develop when people do not derive satisfaction with the opposite gender in finding a partner—a mate to share love feelings with. That is a dilemma that is created and causes great suffering because of the old-fashioned and outdated views of the church. Society, as you know, is much more open and forgiving these days about gender variations from physical anatomy and corresponding feelings. The latter is a more divine way of looking at things. We see love as what counts. How it is expressed, by whom, and with whom is up to the individuals involved. If no one is hurt, there is no foul, there is no transgression from a divine perspective. We want everyone to be happy and to have opportunities for sharing love and sexual gratification if that can be arranged, because it adds significantly to the welfare of the individual, because you are designed to need it, to have desires within, and that is supported by an exquisite physiology and hormonal makeup to create quite a strong sex drive and imperative for its expression. That can be suppressed, as you know from personal experience, and the misguided attitudes of the church in demanding celibacy of the clerics, and so forth, is yet another misguided notion that somehow it allows people to maintain a purer state of being, to give up sexual relationships as though that is an exalted state of being when, in fact, it is a perversion of the soul characteristics and makeup because it is going against nature and the divine intentions for each individual to experience such things and cherish them because they are wondrous in their ability to bring joy and to help people feel truly complete when there is a love relationship bringing such delights. That is the purpose of sexuality to, in effect, be the cherry on top of the sundae. To deny that to oneself or have it condemned by others based on narrow views and intolerance is non-divine—it is that simple. You have done nothing wrong here. You are who you are and you can be certain of our words that: "We love you unreservedly. We have always loved you unreservedly and we are not at all concerned with how you express yourself sexually and any gender preferences that seem right to you and are satisfying to pursue and embrace wholeheartedly if you choose." What matters during the life is whether you have opportunities to give and receive love as a normal part of helping to keep you whole, and to keep you in a high vibration so you are never separate from the divine in a major way. When love is denied, when sexual feelings are repressed, and interpersonal love relationships cannot happen and allowed to flourish, this will be missed, it will be a hole in the life that will lower a person because their happiness is being denied. The overlay of judgment leaving such grave doubts about your standing with how you are viewed by God is not only a travesty, it is, in effect, a high crime by causing such pain to one who is worthy and deserving of love from all she meets. So we can tell you without reservation, categorically, that you are free to choose the life you want in all respects. You are in good standing with us now. You always have been, regardless of how you may have been treated by others. They are the ones in the wrong here and have incurred karmic damage to themselves through their judgment of you. That is not your concern or worry or obligation in any respect. We are simply reinforcing for you that the universe is designed to weigh positive and negative actions and parcel out consequences through the Law of Karma to see that people will be the recipient in the future, through a looping of time, whatever they add to the universe energetically. Positive actions like an act of loving kindness, or a loving gesture, or a love relationship entered into with an open heart and a desire to be loving and nurturing and a comfort to someone else will always raise up the person and the other party as well, and will bring karmic amplification and blessings returning in the future. Any act of disparagement, neglect, mistreatment, anger, resentment, and a judgmental rejection will be a negative karmic energy that will also have consequences that will return to the originator and will generally bring some obstacle that arises—a difficulty, a setback, a time of trial and tribulation, or even something out of alignment in the physical body in the form of an illness. That is a high price to pay for misdeeds that can be avoided by staying in divine alignment through wanting to be loving in all ways, at all times, with all who one interacts with. That can be challenging, we understand, but with that as the goal, you will do better than by ignoring this imperative. You are a fine person, you have a big heart, you need to share that with someone. You have our blessing always. It is time to heal once and for all the wounding that has happened because of being trapped in this dilemma. It is not too late to find a better path, to recover from the hurts it has caused, and to find a way to share love with another in a special relationship. You will flourish, you will be the better for it, and we will always be with you and wanting this for you.