What you are experiencing is an awareness that the deep subconscious is stirring up old karmic business and when that happens, the body may start to mimic an aspect of a prior traumatic event and this will be felt as sensations of various kinds. This is what you are feeling with the rectal and vaginal sensing of something impinging and manipulating you. This is a re-echoing of karmic events where you were perturbed and manipulated in that way physically during an assault. Your mind is simply worrying about this and a part of your deep subconscious is revisiting the trauma and the body, in sympathy, is echoing the tragic symptoms of that long-ago event. The conscious self feels the sensations and finds this disconcerting, which adds further fear to the situation. And this can become a chronic dilemma because neither part of the mind can let it go because there is always worry it will be back again, and sure enough, it does come back and that is because of the preoccupation that develops into a kind of habit. It is in part fresh or old karmic review of the akashic records and/or cellular memory that has persisted and will keep alive in the body the symptoms of old traumas, and these can be a cause of serious undermining of well-being and happiness. This is being worked on with deep healing underway, but also becomes self-reinforced. And again, less preoccupation in paying attention to these symptoms will pay off in allowing things to die down a bit and letting them fade over time.
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