The practitioner writes further about this dream: “Somehow, the “main” portion of myself was inside a house on the property and my attention is drawn there. I can hear some sort of commotion. There is a disruption in the flow of people merging due to an abortion that I had (which is true, it really happened, not just in the dream). There was MUCH talk among all the people who were in the house, including my ex-fiancé and his family. This was considered a disappointing decision I had made, but I was not judged – some people who had carefully planned many things were greatly disappointed, as the course of my life was being adjusted. The course of my fiancé’s life, as well as his family and friends, etc., were all being adjusted. This relationship had been arranged and agreed upon, but now, after what I had done, the change I made, it would not work out as the agreed-upon goals and interactions were no longer conducive to the initial goals that were agreed upon. I was very disappointed that someone else would be stepping in to take my place in this particular family unit. I could hear so many conversations. So much talk. I understood but was not happy.” Was this just a way to process her emotions about the family turmoil she was a part of, or was this a real awareness of a higher-level sorting of the energies of change she influenced?

This was a witnessing of the discussion by the higher selves of all involved with her, and her family-to-be, with the change in plan of the birth in question. There was a decision made that the pairing would not be possible because the point of that family-to-be was to bring that particular life in again with a new incarnation, and so while she had matched the role of fiancé for him, in many respects, being a suitable counterpart to allow further karmic reworking and ideally healing progress, she was not needed for any deeper reasons because the history was not profound as the two had not been in lives together previously. So it was followed and then considered to be an acceptable compromise and the new life came down but, following the abortion, the reason for the pairing of the couple was eliminated and that is why the plans needed to be reworked and she was taken out of the picture entirely. This naturally left some bad feelings and this is typical of all who get abortions because they are always preceded by an agreement at the higher self level for the pregnancy to occur. So there is always an opportunity for regret, remorse, grief, or other unhappy feelings that can accompany any significant change in plans that alter the course of the life. So even when it is viewed with relief to have an abortion because the possibility of an unwanted pregnancy looms large as a negative when it is not a convenient time, there can still be negative emotions about it as well because there was always another future that would have happened with that new life joining with the mother in her adventures and that cannot be discounted as being without significance.