As so often happens, your intuition has brought you the answer here. This, indeed, was a puzzling and highly distressing experience because she had been abducted and was implanted with a fetus and this was wholly outside her memory, yet her physical state could not be denied. She knew something strange had happened but it was quite vague, and because she had emotional desire although did not act on it, in keeping with her vows, she immediately felt there may have been some personal lapse she was blocking out and was ill-equipped to cope with this strange circumstance and defend herself. So she took the course of least resistance here to have at least a defensible reason for her state of being.
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